The night you killed everything,
The night you told your last lie,
The night you gorged myself on my heart
And sipped on my sanity, you selfish, sick shoggoth --
That night, this is what happened,
Narrated as if it was happening right now.

My brain is bleeding
Open it up, and behold!
The thing that should not be
A million maggots feasting on my sanity
Kisses and promises and desire --
Despair, heartache, and submission.

Blood spurts like a diseased ejaculation
Out from my mouth that swore it'd drink your cum
Vomit pours where lovely words once flew
My memory on critical mass; it's been raped
Ravished by lustful animals of internal hatred --
I collapse, and shudder and twitch.

My body rejects you, like an organ
Given to someone with the wrong blood type,
Every cell screaming to get you out of my system
My head killing off forcibly the infestation you laid therein
Seizures of transcendent pain start to wrack me,
And I swear I hear your voice.

"But for God's sake," I wonder in delerium
"At this rate, you're going to kill me."
Logic and intelligence, grace and morality
A soaring spirtualism -- I never gave up on God! --
Everything I am rising into my skin
Negating everything you're not.

I convulse, my head knocking against the wall
But the physical pain pales as to the sheer terror on the inside
I would have done anything for you, and you didn't give a damn
Couldn't give up your immorality for my purity
And again my organs reel backwards, as if wincing,
Fighting off that feeling that I'll always be alone.

My whole body can't take anymore
And forcibly runs itself into the ground, retreating
Into the black arms of unconciousness --
And before I know it, I've awoken.
Filthy, but supremely better, for as I stumble up to the mirror --
I see I'm me again -- me, not the me you wanted me to be.

And just like that
I'm over you.